Suicidal Thoughts

This is tough because when suicidal thoughts show up, they don’t just go away when you want them to. They taint every part of you with darkness, it poisons all feelings. One way to prevent suicidal thoughts is by learning the Al Anon acronym for handling emotional overload:

HALT: You can keep terrible, defeating thoughts away, even if they have been haunting you. Don’t let yourself ever get too hungry, angry, lonely, or tired. If it starts to happen, correct, and change what is happening immediately. Make your own comfort a top priority.

A lot of you at this point would ask the same question I do, why? Why does it even matter? Because you matter! You matter to a lot of people who know you. You are aware of some of the people who care about you, but there are others, many others, who would miss you terribly if you were gone.

Take care of yourself when you start to feel pain. Feed yourself, rest, find a friend who lifts you when the sadness comes, and talk out your anger. Look together for solutions. When you feel angry and you notice you are stuck feeling upset, ask yourself: What can I do for me that will make things better, just for myself and right now?” Focus on something that will empower you. You can’t change others, but you can empower yourself. Practice self-care. Make your survival your top priority. Watch out for your own feelings; respect them, and keep your inner mood as light as possible. 

You might feel that no one can help you. Maybe you don’t want to disturb them or you are too embarrassed to share. The truth is that people love to help their friends and family. What might look like a big secret for you, will sound much smaller to them. Ask for their help and support in a very frank way: “I need your support and help. Can you help me?”

If you feel that you can’t trust anyone, there is still a good solution. You can find support at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Suicidal thoughts like any other thoughts are temporary and eventually are replaced with new thoughts. Become a part of the solution. Keep in mind that suicidal thoughts can kill, but they don’t have to. If you recognize today that you are not your suicidal thoughts, but you are just a person who has temporary suicidal thoughts, than you can get help in time. Give yourself a gift–care for you, remember there is help out there, and reach out to get support. Have faith in your power to heal your pain.

Seven Deadly Sins

The Seven Deadly Sins: Pride, Gluttony, Greed, Lust, Sloth, Wrath, and Envy. 

Although all these sins are dangerous to a person’s soul, there is one that stands out: pride. Pride is one of the worst sins on this list because it taints every virtue, and makes salvation much harder to obtain. 

If you have humility, but also have pride, this is what you get: If a soul tainted with pride wishes to have humility, he may say to God “I am nothing,” but praises himself for being so holy. If a person adds pride to generosity, there are two results. The first is giving what the person really doesn’t need, but constantly taking what the person “rightfully deserves.” The second result would be that the person takes this to the extreme such as selling everything he owns, in order to say that he was the best and boast about how much he has given to such and such a charity. Pride can taint Chastity. A proud soul will stay pure by. Impurity lies first in the heart or in one’s intentions, rather than solely in things physical. If you add pride to kindness, you get flattery. This means that you compliment a person inordinately, just too either look good, to make your reputation better, or to get something out of the person. This is, once again, very superficial, because, on the surface you seem quite charitable, but on the inside, you could hate the person, and no one would know it.

In short, pride is stealing from God the rightful glory due to Him. We tell Him that we are the reason for our virtue and holiness, rather than recognizing the sole source of this goodness. Most people forget that all good is from God alone, and applies it to themselves. This vice begins to eat away at our soul, and make what we thought was Faith, Hope, and Charity, to Me, Myself, and I. There are many ways that you can save your soul from this vice, but the main one is to pray for the grace of Humility. This is easily acquired by saying the “Litany of Humility”, or reminding yourself that all the goodness that you ever did came from God, and any sinfulness came from yourself. In having humility, we begin to love God more, as well as grow in the spiritual life. This is the most important thing in our life because it is the only thing that lasts for eternity.

The Seventeen Evidences of a Lack of Humility

1. To think that what one says or does is better than what others say or do

2. To always want to get your own way

3. To argue with stubbornness and bad manners whether you are right or wrong

4. To give your opinion when it has not been requested or when charity does not demand it

5. To look down on another's point of view

6. Not to look on your gifts and abilities as lent

7. Not to recognize that you are unworthy of all honors and esteem, not even of the earth you walk on and things you possess

8. To use yourself as an example in conversations

9. To speak badly of yourself so that others will think well of you or contradict you

10. To excuse yourself when you are corrected

11. To hide humiliating faults from your spiritual director, so that he will not change the impression he has of you

12. To take pleasure in praise and compliments

13. To be saddened because others are held in higher esteem

14. To refuse to perform inferior tasks

15. To seek to stand out

16. To refer in conversation to your honesty, genius, dexterity, or professional prestige

17. To be ashamed because you lack certain goods

Closing Prayer 

Let us prayer for love and peace. I pray that you help me resist temptation. Let us also pray for our financial situation that our God should restore unto me what the devil has taken.

New Chapter in my Life:

New Chapter in my life: I'm too old to have people in my life who lack loyalty, morals and integrity. If you don't encompass all three please free to remove yourself from my life. 

*my words, my canvas*

Thought before bed

Sure you're extremely wealthy, but how many of you can actually say that you have a good heart?