My mind it is telling me to run. Run far away and never look back. The past shapes our personalities and is a part of who we are today. Why is that such a bad thing at times? Do the good experiences only have positive effects on us, or do the negative experiences really impact us. Our whole being.
It is rather unsettling when things are going well, too well, a person can’t help but take a moment to think,” when is this going to fuck up?” Why do some individuals automatically become frightened? Or is it not possible to ever have something go so well? We get scared, we shut down, and yes we push and push to fight that feeling and yet it still lingers above our minds. Floating like those animations you see in the comic section of a newspaper.
After being burned more than twice, what makes a person say, “This is my year, things will work out.” Should we just blame optimism? After so much “bad luck” a person starts to wonder, should I put my heart into this or is it already too late, because it’s in. Once it’s in then what? Wait until its shattered again? Or does the defense mechanism initiate and the pushing away beings.
Life is very strange, too strange if you ask me. To the point where it is safe to say, we just do not know what will happen. Have you heard that saying, “You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you meet your prince,” well what if the fear pushes that prince away until all is left are blissful memories? Why can’t we just let life pass us by an hour at a time and not worry about the “ifs” and “buts?”
The truth is our fear, our hurt, our pain; our bad experiences will always stop us from taking that next step. We have to just let life happen and not interfere with god’s plans.
*My Words, My Canvas*
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