Journey Through Life...

I look back at my life and I wonder why certain things have played themselves out like they have. I have always believed that whatever happens in life good or bad usually happens for a good reason. However, lately I have been questioning my own thoughts and wonder, was it really for the better?

My life growing was not what you would call a typical childhood. What can I say, not every family is a happy family right? I’ll leave out the details but let’s just say I wake up every morning trying to fake that smile of mine. I’ve gotten pretty good at it now. I guess, years of practice does pay off.

My journey through life has made me the person I am today. Whether I’m a good person or not, only God can judge me on that. I find it funny that a lot of people who know me, and I mean really know me compare me to the character Angela from “Tyler Perry’s Why did I get Married.” I don’t think it’s a bad thing. If I myself could compare myself to someone or something I’d say I am The Phoenix. The Phoenix is a mythological creature who bursts into flames and is reborn again. For me, after each chapter of my life, after each struggle, after each disappointment whatever it may be I just like the Phoenix die and am reborn again. That is the way I play out my life. Some people live their day’s as if it was their last. I live my life an hour at a time, making the last hour the best hour.

Usually, when the Phoenix in me takes over I do something radical to myself to start over. Start new. Start fresh. I dye my hair a lot. The way I look at it is, by changing something about me (such as my hair color) I become a new person; I can then start the New chapter of my life.

So, do I still think whatever happens in life occurs for a good reason? Absolutely! Without my past, without the experience (painful or not) shapes who you are today. If other people don’t like it, fuck it. As long as you are happy with who you are and who you have become that is the only thing that should matter. And if you don’t like who you have become change it! “If you can change your mind, you can change your life.” –K

Remember, you can’t and will not be liked by everyone in this world. As long as you got a few good people in your life, I think that’s all that matters.

I want to take this time out and thank my four favorite girls for always being there for me. I want to thank you all for being such great friends who I feel are my family. I want to thank you all for giving me so much and not asking for much in return. I want to also thank you for putting up with me when I am difficult. I know I can be. I love you all!

“How we spend our days, is how we live our lives...” –K.