Let Me Breath...

I’m tired ….I have no patients left. I am exhausted and can’t do it anymore. I’m the type of person, the type of friend who will put their life on hold to help someone else. One call or cry for help and I’m there in a heartbeat. A distress friend texting me or calling me in the middle of the night needing my support, I’m there. Now I just can’t do it anymore. I am annoyed. I am frustrated. I begin to see a pattern and I don’t like it. People have gotten accustomed to my always being there. The sense of knowing that they will always have me available to their disposal when ever, where ever. I don’t blame them I guess I’ve spoiled them by being the way I am. Now I’m at the point where I’m tired of jumping when they say jump. I am tired of putting my life on hold to make sure they are alright. I’m tired of waking up at night when my phones light is in my face with a frantic text message asking me for advice.

Should I change? Will I change?

Most likely no, but this brief phase in my life …everyone can go on and live their lives; I choose to be invisible at this point in time. I choose to disappear. I choose to be self-fish just for a little while, until I’m happy again.

This is temporary. People just need to stop depending on me for a lot of things. Please let me breath.

Things listed here will not be responded to or tolerated:
"call me I need your advise" ....(Ask me how I am first before you send me that)
"call me" - (Why? Why not just call me? Your the one who wants to talk)
"get online" - (If you can text me this issue why do I need to get online?)
"let hang out meet me here ..." - (Your an idiot...hanging out is something that needs to be planned)
"So this is the situation ...Blah...Blah...Blah" - (You send me 6 text msgs telling me your story and now need advice...don't you have a brain? Stop being dependent on others and live your LIFE!)

Lastly for the acquaintances in my life: If I haven't heard from your in a week, two weeks a month ...don't bother contacting me. Chances are I've already deleted your number.

And yes, if you ask me on Friday if I would like to hang out on Monday than keep in touch let me know if it's still going down. Don't track me down at 1am on Monday asking if I'm still down.

Get a brain people and let me breath. Let me be...